An open letter to Suicide...

Dear Suicide,

You’ve taken many innocent lives, more lives than any singular disease or virus could take in a lifetime. You’ve ripped many families apart. You’ve torn people’s minds, you’ve eaten away at the most caring and loving of us humans. You have degraded people in ways that are inexplicable. You have left scars on the bodies of people who once believed what you said to be true. You have urged him to jump off that bridge. You have manipulated her into taking them pills. You have lured him to the rope. You have dragged her to the bottom of that lake. You have claimed the lives of people who were struggling and vulnerable. People who begged and longed to be understood and loved. What they needed was support and guidance, and what did they receive? A coward living within their own mind, convincing them they were better off dead. Convincing them death was the only solution to end the pain, the only “way out” of their misery. 

You have often creeped into the back of my mind, unwelcome. You have often tried your hardest to persuade me that doing what you say is for the benefit of myself and the ones I love. You’ve been overbearing at times. You have made me feel worthless and as if I had nothing to offer this world. At times, I was naïve enough to believe the things you would tell me; naïve enough to consider what you said to be a reality, when really they were meaningless thoughts forced into my mind by YOU. There were times you had me on my knees, begging for there to be another way. When my world became hopeful, you swarmed in and erased all of the light, you absorbed all of my hope, and made sure my rainbow was consumed by thunder. 

But today. I refuse to let you win.

I will not allow my mind to succumb to your demonic thoughts and manipulation. You may have tried your hardest to persuade me to take you upon your offer. But my life is worth way more than a few worthless thoughts. 

You tried, but you lost. And I hope you never succeed again. 

~ a hopeful soul. 

Hope is present in every situation. Under every dark cloud, lies a glimmer of hope. I want you to know that this feeling passes. Believe me, it doesn’t feel like it will ever pass in the moment, but that moment WILL pass, and the feeling will follow suit. In life, we go through very dark days. The beauty is, these dark days just make the bright ones so much more special and admirable. The dark days shape us. They shape our abilities and our strengths when it comes to coping and thriving. We look back on these dark days and think “This is what I came from. I am now in a place where I fought my absolute hardest to be.” 

So, wipe your tears, wash your face, and put that smile back on your beautiful face. You may feel as though the world is the darkest place you can be right now, and you may feel as though there’s no way out of this feeling. But I promise you, there’s always a way out. Where there’s a way IN, there is a way OUT and death is by no means any solution to your problems, so don’t believe what your mind tells you. If you can’t find the courage to carry on, let me be your guide. Stay in the present moment, silence these intrusive thoughts and believe in yourself. YOU are the one in control here. 

You’re far from weak. You have so much to offer this world. Without you, the beauty will begin to fade. 

This is a battle which you CAN and WILL win! I believe in you, so believe in yourself too. 

There are so many people that care about you, regardless of whether it is shown or not. 

You have so much to learn and experience yet. 

YOU HAVE PURPOSE

❤️