My Journey: Manifesting in Change..




Well, it’s finally here; the final part, long awaited I’m sure. Slight mental breakdown, hence the long wait. This post is most important to me because I get to acknowledge my growth, and my excitement for the future, particularly the changes yet to come. 

We often become trapped in the mindset that every decision we make is the be all, or end all. This mindset is particularly prominent in those who experience anxiety. Worrying about your future is one thing, having anxiety on top of this is a whole new kettle of fish. For a long while, I gave up on any idea of having a successful future. I looked around, I saw those close to me achieving their goals, making their moves, and working towards the person they aspire to be. I would then evaluate my reality and notice there was a vast difference. At the time, I was nothing but a uni dropout with immense potential, but no plan. This had me thinking hard about what I wanted to do, and where I see myself in a few years down the line. 

It’s hard to know exactly what you want to do, or who you want to be. Particularly for us teens, we’re bombarded with external and internal pressures when it comes to our futures. For me, there was huge pressure to be the first in my family to go to university and graduate. There was also pressure to have my shit figured out, when I was in the midst of falling to pieces. I mean, how can you decide what route to take, when the current path you’re on is crumbling? The reality? You can’t. 

I learned this the hard way. However, what I took from it is that it’s important to figure yourself out before you make any decisions that will impact your future self. You need to be in sync with your current self in order to make the right choices about what you do next. This can be easier said than done, of course. It’s no walk in the park, but this park still has a path; a path that you have to take to find who you are. Along the way, you’ll experience self-doubt, inconsistencies, low self esteem, and periods of hopelessness. But do not give up on the person you dream to be. If you want success, you must work for it. Unfortunately, many of us don’t bear the vocal ability of Ariana Grande, so we’ve got to find a more realistic route to take. 

Dropping out of university was something I sought to be the most appropriate thing to do in the moment. Not only was it vital for my mental health to leave education, but it was the key to finding out who I really am. In life, we have to make difficult choices. More often than not, you must take the risk, to test your fate (within reason). I’ve had a year to find myself, I’m still not 100% there, and there’s much work to be done. However, one thing I’m certain of is that I am more than ready to go back to education. I am ready to do what I love most, and work towards a future of success and happiness. 

Inevitably we have a path. Sometimes we deter from the path, and drift a little. In time, lesson after lesson, experience after experience, we always come back to the route we were destined to take. Change is inevitable and will not always be easy, but it will be worthwhile. 

Take the risk. Trust the journey and Manifest in change. 

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